New year, new beginnings.
I can’t believe it’s 2019!
How the hell did we get here?! As in, how it is already the year 2019, and where on earth did 2018 go?! Last year flew by. Insanely quickly. It was a year of ups and downs. Like many years are. There was lots of happiness, and as is life, some sadness too.
And on top of that our home was hit by redundancy for the second time in two years. This time for Mark. It felt like another kick in the gut for us. Plus it made the fact my job was only until the end of the year a bit more daunting. After a little bit of stressing, I decided I needed to be a bit more like my other half, and just chill the f**k out.
I’m trying to see this year as a bit of an adventure. Embrace the fact that I don’t have it all planned out. This doesn’t come easy for me!
As with every year, there will be no new year resolutions. I’m not a fan of them, and the feeling of failure when you (inevitably) break those resolutions. Last years goals ended up being pretty hard to achieve, having a three-hour commute every day and the fact that I was learning a job meant I had very little brain capacity left for much else.
So I’ve set myself some goals for the year ahead, but they come under one overall goal.
This is my biggest goal. And the most important one. I spent almost all of my twenties miserably unhappy. And it’s something I never want to feel again. Not constant unhappiness like I felt before. And I’m not pretending happiness all the time is a thing, life always has its challenges. But despite what life has thrown at me in the last three years, I’ve been mostly happy.
There are smaller goals that will contribute to my overall goal of being happy. Things like running more – something that genuinely makes me feel good.
I really need (and want) to finish my web design course. I would love to have a job I like, that lets me use my creativity. It’s also really important to me that I become financially independent. Something I’ve never been.
2019 is also going to be the year I start doing more for me. I’m a people pleaser and struggle to let people do nice things for me or put myself first. The result of this is that often I do things I don’t really want to. I’m not about to become totally selfish but maybe just say ‘no’ more often.
Other things – eat less meat, use less single-use plastic and have lots, and lots of FUN!
Do you have any 2019 goals or resolutions?